Are you out there
Can you hear me
Can you see me in the dark
I don't believe it's all for nothing
It's not just written in the sand
Sometimes I thought you felt too much
And you crossed into the shadowland
And the river was overflowing
And the sky was fiery red
You gotta play the hand that's dealt ya
That's what the old man always said
Fallen Angel
Casts a shadow up against the sun
If my eyes could see
The spirit of the chosen one
In my dream the pipes were playing
In my dream I lost a friend
Come down Gabriel and blow your horn
'Cause some day we will meet again
Fallen Angel
Casts a shadow up against the sun
If my eyes could see
The spirit of the chosen one
All the tears
All the rage
All the blues in the night
If my eyes could see
You kneeling in the silver light
Fallin', fallin', fallin' down
Fallin', fallin' down
Fallin', fallin', fallin' down
Fallin', fallin' down
Fallen Angel
Casts a shadow up against the sun
If my eyes could see
The spirit of the chosen one
All the tears
All the rage
All the blues in the night
If my eyes could see
You kneeling in the silver light
If you're out there can you touch me
Can you see me I don't know
If you're out there can you reach me
Lay a flower in the snow
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先輩が亡くなったと知らされて発症した後、『亡き王女のためのパヴァーヌ』とともによく聴いていた曲。亡くなった友人について歌った曲だという。奇しくも先輩が亡くなる前日(つまり大晦日)、東京は大雪だった。僕も雪の中に花を手向けたかった。何年経っても、あるいはおそらく死ぬまで、僕は先輩の死を悼むタイミングを逸したことを後悔し続けるだろう。
カウンセラーは、僕は「思考と感情が切り離されている」と言う。確かにそのとおりだ。感情をそのまま表に出すことができない。そして表に出なかった感情は裏に残り続ける。こんなふうに。